After years of hesitation, procrastination and unsubstantiated perfectionism, I've been told to cast the net and start my website/blog in its imperfect state.

As the founder, I was asked to give an opening speech. The theme of the event was "Unapologetically Ambitious", but the word ambitious felt alien to me. What is ambition? What is success?

I think I seem crazy at times. I already dedicated 8 years of my life to studying, don’t necessarily think I’m better off for it, and yet I still felt the need to apply to a software engineering course. Here’s why:

I never thought coming out as a survivor, on a website that nobody reads, would be so hard. Yet, I find myself struggling describe myself as a survivor. A survivor of what? What do I tell people?

It’s been a year since I’ve written and a lot has changed. I dropped out of Entrepreneur First, lived with my parents in Barcelona for a year and just moved to Lisbon.

After 4 months in San Francisco, I'm finally beginning to understand the magic of Silicon Valley. It's the American "Just do it" mentality, it's either go big or go home.

Lately, I haven’t been as set on staying in San Francisco as I originally was. Having spent at least half of my mental energy trying to figure out my next step, I came to the conclusion that I only want to stay for the right reasons.

Throughout high school and university, I always knew what was next. Then finally, after years of anticipation I graduated. The prospect of graduating, getting a job, having some form of (hopefully) decent pay and finally being able to afford rent, food and go to festivals instead of working there sounded good.

Starting a new job with limited experience, especially right after your studies, feels a bit like walking into the wilderness. How do we find a job we enjoy and can use our skills? Here are some of the things I wish I’d thought about earlier.

It seems a bit as though we take getting a degree in the Netherlands for granted sometimes, but being in the US has really made me think twice. Why do recruiters in the Netherlands seem to value a master’s more than other places?

I hate not having plans. I love going out and doing things with my friends but for some reason… Deep, deep down… I really don’t want to set anything in stone. It’s like a constant battle.